I’ve been thinking a lot about how to even have this conversation. This is a heavy one.
(TW: gun violence)
“Let me live, love, and say it well in good sentences."
~ Sylvia Plath
All tagged Reflection Sunday
I’ve been thinking a lot about how to even have this conversation. This is a heavy one.
(TW: gun violence)
So, the writer takes a determined step forward.
How to begin again, indeed.
With one step and one word after another.
I’ve got the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart because joy to the world, the Savior reigns, and joyful, joyful we adore Thee.
It feels simultaneously impossible that it’s been that long and so much longer.
I’ve been going to church my whole life. I grew up in the church; my parents grew up in the church. There’s a lineage of grace there. I’ve been blessed to be raised this way and I look forward to raising my own kids this way. (Whenever that is.)
A lot of my creative energies are spent in long projects—writing fiction, quilting, you get the idea. But baking…with baking I get to see a tangible good within just a few hours. It’s great.
I don’t like ladders.
Never have.
I don’t really like step stools either.
It was a glimpse at what could be.
Today I almost forgot that I needed to write a blog post. For once it wasn’t because I wanted to make an excuse to not write (which happens more often than I care to admit). No, today I almost forgot because I was already in the writing sphere, just operating in a different hemisphere.
This week was a tough one.
“Steadfast” is my word for this year. I had decided this in December of last year. It was a word that kept coming up, and I felt a tug towards it. In the past I’ve had words like “faithfulness” and “stewardship,” and they’ve carried unexpected weight and brought grounding clarity. But this year I chose a word that almost feels suffocating to me. It already carries a lot of weight, and I hadn’t even begun to unpack it and see what it will mean for me this year.
I’m sharing this with you in the name of being open and honest and authentic. Because I am certain that I am not the only one who does this—tack on little loopholes to goals so that when we don’t attain them it’s okay. Right? Tell me I’m not alone in this.
This week, a status movement happened on Facebook that I didn’t know would shake me to my core. It was unexpected. And the first status I read started with, “Me, too” and then launched into a description of the incredible amount of healing done since an assault. All of that healing, and still there are nightmares and fears.
Last weekend, my little brother got married! I had the privilege of being the maid of honor, so I gave a toast to the newly married couple! When they first got engaged I spent a lot of time thinking about what I would say, but as the months ticked by I thought about it less. So the nightbefore the wedding, I sat down at the keyboard and smashed out the following speech.
I am stepping up and stepping out boldly. I am pressing on.
I’m late to this party—for a couple of reasons.
I’m having a hard time putting into written words what exactly I want to say. I thank God that He knows the meditations of my heart, even when words fail me.
How cool is it that I get to write Reflection Sunday on the first day of a brand new year? It’s pretty cool. And honestly a lot of pressure to say something profound and thought-provoking.
We can all agree that this time of year is busy. There’s a lot of stuff to get done between the shopping, baking, parties, concerts, church activities, and the list could go on. I’ve had a lot of extra things this year as well—please do not read this as complaining, I’m not complaining, I love this time of year.
It’s been a big year. I have a lot to be thankful for. My thoughts feel a bit scattered—my gratitude covers so many areas of my life that it’s overwhelming. So, to organize my thoughts, here is a list of some of the things I’m thankful for, in no particular order.